It just is.

I caught up with an old friend yesterday. Old, meaning that I've know her a long time, 9 years to be exact. Life and time and things got in the way over the last few years. But yesterday we caught up and it was wonderful. It's like time had stopped way back when everything was good, like we un-froze the space and we could just be, again. I missed it. I never knew how much I missed it until I was there again. Sometimes forgiveness isn't just for the person who is saying sorry, it's for you too. You get to let go. You get to throw away all the hurt and pain and move on. It's a beautiful day. Old jokes are easily remembered. Memories are revisited. God renews us. He also renews our relationships. It's a blessing. A gift. Why is it good to have her back?
It just is.

Oh, happy day.

Oh what a glorious day

blue skies 
sleeping in
fresh flowers
hope for tomorrow
letting go of my yesterdays
old friends
fond memories
'you'd look good in this'
new beginnings

A Poem

People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind,
people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful,
you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank,
people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building,
someone could destroy overnight.
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness,
they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today,
people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis
it is between you and God;
it was never between you and them anyway.

By Mother Teresa. 
I found this poem online, here.

I can hear

Note to self : remember this. 

The neighbours laughing.
3 little boys, without a care in the world.
Running and screaming and falling and skipping and shouting and laughing. It's so beautiful.
Sometimes, I wish I was that carefree. With an inability to hold onto sad moments and hurtful worlds. These kids remind me of what's important, fun, friendship and freedom. Oh, how lovely it is.


Just because.

...I really do think I have the best husband in the world. I want so much to remember the lovely things he does for me - so that when i'm tired and cranky and trying to blame the world for my bad days, I can think about all the amazing little things that I have. Here's a few, in dot point form because dot points (and lists) are so exciting!

  • coffee and chocolate croissants on a saturday morning
  • walks down to the river at night, eating ice cream
  • car rides home, with his arm around my shoulder
  • listening to his favourite music and watching him light up
  • cooking something really boring and not incredible and him telling me it's the best meal he's ever had. oh :)
  • doing the dishes together
  • dancing in the kitchen, humming our wedding song.
Don't take anything for granted. Life is just too short.

I am..

I had the most wonderful birthday.
I used to be a hater...of birthdays. Kind of like the grinch, except he's for Christmas (and I love Christmas!).
Sometimes I would get invited for parties and be like.. "Why should I go, it's only their birthday, they didn't even DO anything. They just lived another year."
Oh dear.
This year was perfect - i am the birthday disliker no more!
I had a lovely day at work, cake with my family, and a surprise dinner to top it all off. Wow.
Birthdays can be awesome. The best part? I didn't even DO anything to deserve it :) I am beyond blessed.